Saturday, July 19, 2008

July

It's been ultimately a very long time since my last post. I'm well aware of that, and what better time to update the blog now when all traffic has probably come to a halt? It'll make a good update anyways. Tons have happened since the last post that I'm not sure where to even begin. Let's see, there was the semester (which wasn't the smoothest of semesters I might add, but it's all good at the moment), and Uni probably starts in about a month. That leaves me with much less time to finish what I started out to do. Given, so far this holiday has seen MGS4, GTA4 and Halo 3 finished so far, but it's a far cry from what is my everyday life. That was all done in a span of about a week. What about the other month or so? I can't really remember much about it except that I've been spending the past week or so getting best times for PGR4's Quebec grand city tour route. It's really a very brilliant course. Made real by the 360 steering. I can't say I've felt a more realistic driving simulation solution atm. It's really brill until Sal decides to get the G25 for GT5 (although he's probably going to use it to run Daytona USA on emus) , which is basically a date TBA. Oh, and been guitar heroing around the house every so often, esp with the new Top Gun Anthem available free. Besides that I've been really just been watching the Long Way Down (which is absolutely brilliant) and dreaming of buying superbikes for a week or so. It's terribly annoying that there's no job replies yet. But like Rachel once said (in SE01 EP01 more accurately) "I'm qualified for nothing!" and then goes on to be so cheerily happy because she got her new boots boots with her dad's credit card. Or something like that. I would like to say I'm in a similar dilemma, except I didn't run away from a wedding, or have a credit card for that matter. I suppose my dad probably had an epiphany that I'm more than capable to buy a bike had I been given said card. Wise. But that doesn't change the fact that I don't have personal transport to Sydney for my year end extravaganza. Well, it's still a few months away and I need to get a license as well. All this ranting seems too...amateurish! Annnyways..it's about 13 degrees outside and it's kinda lovely weather especially with Daft Punk's Technologic playing in the background. It's been one really different year. It's not that much better, but then I can't say it's that much worse as well. It's just been horribly weird. Changes are good they say. Really? I've thought about it. People adapt to changes in two ways. One, they (sooner or later) accept their fate, and give in to change. The second, adapt to the change but do not accept their fate, trying to make the change controllable, or more to their own tune. This is both good and bad as it is directly related to the intensity of action versus the probability of change. Increased intensity increases probability but does not guarantee a good change or change at all. So the bad would be failure to change what is, and increased intensity only allows for a higher probability of failure as well as increased height to which we fall from. So which is better? There is no direct answer simply because it's down to contentment. If change makes you content, then intensity remains the same (or in most cases) a negative figure. Therefore you stay where you are when you are content. So really, change isn't always good, it either makes you long to preserve the present, envious of the past, or trying to change the future. It's all work anyways. And all this even after I had those seven days in sunny June.